Me and my boyfriend broke up- i left him i think... its been 2 days, im heart broken?

Well first of all I would like to go in complete detail in order to get the most sincere advice.I am 22 years and been with my first boyfriend for a year and 5 months.I am indian and he is mixed(black and white).Yes he is my first love,kiss, partner, first guy I opened up to in any form.Being very conserved at home with protective friends and family I never stepped out of my box much. Well we met started the whole relationship deal of going out many times a week while I'm a college student and living in an apt 40 mins away from my parents. I go home every weekend so it is quite easy to miss out and be taken advantage of. My boyfriend was accused of cheating and he left that girl for me even thuogh it took so long to forgive him he is my weakness. The phone has always been the number one source of female communication and anytime i went through it theres so many girls all intimate with him and him being like can i see you and so on.We used to fight everytime i found those texts and hed say dont get mad if you go through it and find something your looking for.Eventually a disaster happened and his sugar mama and aunt ruined my rep with my family telling everything personal about us which my family was totally unaware of. For about 3 months I went through complete torture yet still kept in touch because he is the one I would always run back to and stand for through thick and thin. He does say he loves me and we talk about the future but he does not act on it which makes me wonder how serious he is. Things got better between us after that big grey cloud and have been however I found new girls had been coming to visit him. It tore my confidence that after I went through so much he still has those temptations for what?!? Well its always been me running back after hes wrong because he never is the type to call or check up. I love him more than myself and I believe giving up is not the answer. I always pay buy him w/e to fulfill his desires for his happiness but he is currently low and doesnt have ways to pamper me which irritates me also. I have texted him real serious down to earth feelings and sometimes all he says is do u or i love you but you argue too much. His past habits and family upbringing makes it loook like females come and go. He however has said he does want to be serious and settle and needs me to trust him and be a woman. I do not know what else to do and 2 days ago I told him i promise i wont get in the way anymore but im dying to hear his voice and be in his arms. He just texted saying he needs his poolstick which he left at my place. nothing to do with us besides to enjoy my new life :( please help i am not the type to go meet new men. i have lost alllmost all my friends andjust made school and him and my family my focus.