Suicide or runaway, I'm just trying to find a light.?

Ok, first of all you have your whole life ahead of you. You will meet other guys, dont worry. The thing with your mom, maybe just talk to her and let her know how your feel, spill out your feelings to her and see how she reacts. Your mother should listen to you because your her daughter, she loves you. Try not breaking the rules/curfew, your parents might see that you are listening so your relarionship might get stronger. but please dont do anything stupid. your only 17 you have a long life ahead of you. im the same age as you, and yeah there are times i get down to and feel like the world is just caving in but you cant let that get to your mind like that.